I notice a real difference with this fill. It was tiny, just 0.1 cc, but it's like night and day in terms of what I can and can't eat. Which is good - my volume is way down, and bad - can't do much in the way of vegetables.
I've stuck mostly to liquids to be on the safe side, but there's some weirdness happening. Yesterday I was able to eat a moist turkey burger at a lunchtime bbq (I know, crazy, right?) but got stuck after two bites of scallops last night at dinner. This morning my tea took a while to drink and I had blended turkey chili for lunch to keep things going down easy. Tonight I had a bite of parmesan cheese, it got stuck and now I'm sliming.
I've had a lot less sugar and a lot more exercise, and guess what? The scale isn't moving. So I'm frustrated.
But I tried on my pretty new dress this afternoon and it looks nice. I'm trying to be positive even though I'm feeling kind of pissy.
I am thinking less often about food, and not feeling much hunger, now that I think about it. So that's good too.
At my appointment, I talked to my surgeon about my trip to the Bahamas later this month, and how nervous I am that I'll get too tight and spend the whole time getting sick. After I told him my mom and sister are both nurses, he gave me a syringe and needle to take with me so if I have an emergency they can take some fluid out of my band. It's extreme, but it's a huge weight off my shoulders and now I don't feel like I'll have to get an unfill before we go to make sure all goes smoothly.
OK, I think whatever was stuck has moved on. No PB this time. WOOT.
Monday, May 30, 2011
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Fill Fill Fill
I got a little fill today, just 0.1 cc. Had a long chat with my surgeon about my lack of progress over the last several months, and he went over the basics again with me. Which is really what I need to focus on. He gently reminded me that sometimes eating comfortably with the band isn't the same as eating wisely with the band.
I went to the gym and worked out this afternoon, and I'm on a mission to drop the seven pounds that have crept up on me since the end of March and keep going until my weight FINALLY starts with a 1.
My new clothes from Saks arrived today! Still have to try them on in the comfort of my house to decide how much I really like them.
I went to the gym and worked out this afternoon, and I'm on a mission to drop the seven pounds that have crept up on me since the end of March and keep going until my weight FINALLY starts with a 1.
My new clothes from Saks arrived today! Still have to try them on in the comfort of my house to decide how much I really like them.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Shopping Photos
It's been so long since I've posted, I'm going the bullet route.
* I had a slight unfill at the end of March because I had some trips coming up and was afraid I'd run into trouble while I was away from home. I scheduled a fill appointment when I got back from one trip but rescheduled because I had to go back to Florida for a few days. That second appointment was a bust because I waited for 45 minutes and the doctor still had another 15-20 minutes before he could see me. My daughter was about to lose it, so I rescheduled. The office called me to cancel that one because my doctor was unavailable. I am FINALLY supposed to get a small fill tomorrow. Cross your fingers that it actually happens. I'm going to suggest my doctor hire a PA to handle fills.
* My eating has not been great. Since the unfill, I've gained a few pounds, and they're real pounds, not water weight. Weighed in at 210.2 yesterday.
* My exercise is really starting to gain momentum. An awesome new gym opened in our town, and let me tell you it's been a long time coming. Until now, we haven't had much to speak of in terms of a really fun, nice place with great facilities and innovative classes. To that end, I decided to try every single group fitness class the gym offers. So far I've tried six different classes (a few of them, like Zumba and spinning, several times). It's fun to mix it up.
* I have a big family beach vacation next month, and I need a couple dresses for dinners and some summer stuff. My sizes haven't changed much; I remain in limbo between fat-girl store clothes and regular store clothes. Which makes shopping a little more complicated and not a lot of fun when I have to concede defeat and go to the plus size section.
I got this at Bloomingdale's a few weeks ago, and had a few compliments when I wore it recently:
Here's my problem (in addition to not being able to wear normal sizes): I want to look put together. I would like to be able to put an outfit together and accessorize. I'm not good at it. I really want someone to just pick out my clothes for me every day, and make sure they're comfortable.
I took a page from Catherine's book, since she is always so impeccably dressed, and made an appointment at Saks Fifth Avenue with a personal shopper. Yesterday, I took the train into New York and had a nice little day to myself. I was so looking forward to this appointment, and I think my expectations were a little too high. I was hoping she would tell me exactly what to wear and what not to wear, which shoes to wear with things and what jewelry to put with each outfit. I think she would have, if only I had asked for complete outfits. It didn't occur to me to be that specific, but I will next time.
I tried on about 20 dresses, shirts and pants and bought four things. I only got pictures of two of them, when the dresser stepped outside for a minute, because I felt like a jackass taking pictures of myself in front of her and her assistant. In both of these pictures, I'm wearing the jeans I wore into the city yesterday, so pay no attention to the bottom half. (Also, it was rainy and humid so my hair went all crazy frizzy.)
I had asked the dresser to pull sizes 16, 18 and 20 for me. The 20s were uniformly too big, as were most of the 18 tops, so that was good news. I am still firmly an 18 on the bottom. Blech.
This one is a silk Michael Kors number, on sale:
This one is a little too tight so I'll save it for a few pounds from now. I feel like it's kind of Jersey housewife, so let me know if you don't like it. Be honest!
I had my hair highlighted between the two shopping outings. Now I just need a haircut.
When I get the dress I bought I'll try it on. I like it, but I'm not in love with it like I was in love with Shaun Cassidy in kindergarten. So we'll see...
* I had a slight unfill at the end of March because I had some trips coming up and was afraid I'd run into trouble while I was away from home. I scheduled a fill appointment when I got back from one trip but rescheduled because I had to go back to Florida for a few days. That second appointment was a bust because I waited for 45 minutes and the doctor still had another 15-20 minutes before he could see me. My daughter was about to lose it, so I rescheduled. The office called me to cancel that one because my doctor was unavailable. I am FINALLY supposed to get a small fill tomorrow. Cross your fingers that it actually happens. I'm going to suggest my doctor hire a PA to handle fills.
* My eating has not been great. Since the unfill, I've gained a few pounds, and they're real pounds, not water weight. Weighed in at 210.2 yesterday.
* My exercise is really starting to gain momentum. An awesome new gym opened in our town, and let me tell you it's been a long time coming. Until now, we haven't had much to speak of in terms of a really fun, nice place with great facilities and innovative classes. To that end, I decided to try every single group fitness class the gym offers. So far I've tried six different classes (a few of them, like Zumba and spinning, several times). It's fun to mix it up.
* I have a big family beach vacation next month, and I need a couple dresses for dinners and some summer stuff. My sizes haven't changed much; I remain in limbo between fat-girl store clothes and regular store clothes. Which makes shopping a little more complicated and not a lot of fun when I have to concede defeat and go to the plus size section.
I got this at Bloomingdale's a few weeks ago, and had a few compliments when I wore it recently:
Here's my problem (in addition to not being able to wear normal sizes): I want to look put together. I would like to be able to put an outfit together and accessorize. I'm not good at it. I really want someone to just pick out my clothes for me every day, and make sure they're comfortable.
I took a page from Catherine's book, since she is always so impeccably dressed, and made an appointment at Saks Fifth Avenue with a personal shopper. Yesterday, I took the train into New York and had a nice little day to myself. I was so looking forward to this appointment, and I think my expectations were a little too high. I was hoping she would tell me exactly what to wear and what not to wear, which shoes to wear with things and what jewelry to put with each outfit. I think she would have, if only I had asked for complete outfits. It didn't occur to me to be that specific, but I will next time.
I tried on about 20 dresses, shirts and pants and bought four things. I only got pictures of two of them, when the dresser stepped outside for a minute, because I felt like a jackass taking pictures of myself in front of her and her assistant. In both of these pictures, I'm wearing the jeans I wore into the city yesterday, so pay no attention to the bottom half. (Also, it was rainy and humid so my hair went all crazy frizzy.)
I had asked the dresser to pull sizes 16, 18 and 20 for me. The 20s were uniformly too big, as were most of the 18 tops, so that was good news. I am still firmly an 18 on the bottom. Blech.
This one is a silk Michael Kors number, on sale:
This one is a little too tight so I'll save it for a few pounds from now. I feel like it's kind of Jersey housewife, so let me know if you don't like it. Be honest!
I had my hair highlighted between the two shopping outings. Now I just need a haircut.
When I get the dress I bought I'll try it on. I like it, but I'm not in love with it like I was in love with Shaun Cassidy in kindergarten. So we'll see...
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Checkin' in
I really don't have much to say, which is why I haven't posted in a while. I've been reading, but not posting a lot.
My weight was 209.4 this morning. That's up about six pounds from my most recent low. I was supposed to get a fill last week but after waiting for 45 minutes at my doctor's office, my toddler was about to blow so I had to reschedule for a week from today.
I had a kick-ass kickboxing class on Sunday, and I'm still sore from it. That was fun. Mother's Day was great - I had the traditional inedible breakfast in bed (a smoothie made with yogurt that expired on April 28th), served by my children. They were excited and tried to be super fancy waiters, which was adorable.
I'm eating too much sugar, I'm eating too much sugar, I'm eating too much sugar.
My weight was 209.4 this morning. That's up about six pounds from my most recent low. I was supposed to get a fill last week but after waiting for 45 minutes at my doctor's office, my toddler was about to blow so I had to reschedule for a week from today.
I had a kick-ass kickboxing class on Sunday, and I'm still sore from it. That was fun. Mother's Day was great - I had the traditional inedible breakfast in bed (a smoothie made with yogurt that expired on April 28th), served by my children. They were excited and tried to be super fancy waiters, which was adorable.
I'm eating too much sugar, I'm eating too much sugar, I'm eating too much sugar.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
I'm a Lazy Blogger
It's so true: As success wanes, so does blogging.
The bad news: I've gained six pounds, topping out at 211.6 this morning.
The good news: I had two really great workouts this week, Zumba and spinning.
I have one last trip to Florida tomorrow to wrap up a few things. I do so love flying with a toddler. Dear Person Sitting in Row 17 on our flight tomorrow: I am so sorry if my daughter has a conniption and kicks your seat. I tried to get an "extra legroom" seat but they were all taken. The car seat takes up a lot of space. I will hold her ankles as best I can. Sincerely, Mom of an almost 2-year-old.
I'm back home Wednesday and getting a small fill a couple days after that, which I hope will help get things back on the right track.
The bad news: I've gained six pounds, topping out at 211.6 this morning.
The good news: I had two really great workouts this week, Zumba and spinning.
I have one last trip to Florida tomorrow to wrap up a few things. I do so love flying with a toddler. Dear Person Sitting in Row 17 on our flight tomorrow: I am so sorry if my daughter has a conniption and kicks your seat. I tried to get an "extra legroom" seat but they were all taken. The car seat takes up a lot of space. I will hold her ankles as best I can. Sincerely, Mom of an almost 2-year-old.
I'm back home Wednesday and getting a small fill a couple days after that, which I hope will help get things back on the right track.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Florida NSVs
First things first: My dad's medical tests came back with fantastic news - the condition he has is treatable, and doesn't involve cancer. We are all tremendously relieved, and I thank you for your kind words and prayers for our family. You really comforted me.
I've spent the last week in Florida visiting my parents, hanging with the kids and having an all-too-short romantic weekend with my husband. It was sunny and hot and beautiful, a lovely change from the dreary, rainy spring we're having in New England.
My parents spend half the year in Naples, Fla., and when we visit we have a wonderful time but we completely wear them out. They go from zero to 70 for an entire week, and they aren't used to that much chaos at one time for such a sustained period. So when a condo in their building came on the market, Hubs and I decided to buy it. The sale was finalized on Wednesday. Once we get this puppy furnished, we'll be able to visit without overwhelming my parents. It's a great solution for us and for them. This trip was a little schizophrenic - mornings at the beach swimming in the Gulf of Mexico, and then afternoons at Bed, Bath & Beyond, Lowe's and Target.
Hubs had to work but came down late Thursday, and I left the kids with my parents and met him at a resort in Naples. Friday morning, we picked up the kids and went to the coolest county park ever - the Sun N Fun Lagoon water park. It was totally awesome, they had something fun and exciting for each of our kids. We loved it.
NSV Alert: I had to walk all around the water park in nothing but my bathing suit. No wrap, no cover-up, nothing. Just me and a swimsuit. AND I DID IT. I wasn't 100 percent comfortable - those women have some killer bodies in Naples. But I didn't spent the entire time dying of mortification, either. I had fun. I went on the water slides and laughed with my boy on the lazy river when we got stuck under a "waterfall" and my straw hat got soaked. I had a good time.
Also, I wore a pair of khakis that I bought last spring. They worked then, but were on the tighter side. This year, they fit perfectly. I haven't lost much weight at all lately, so this was a really nice boost for me. Changes are happening, even if they're not evident on the scale.
I hope you're all well. I'm off to start catching up on everyone's blogs. Happy Easter!
I've spent the last week in Florida visiting my parents, hanging with the kids and having an all-too-short romantic weekend with my husband. It was sunny and hot and beautiful, a lovely change from the dreary, rainy spring we're having in New England.
My parents spend half the year in Naples, Fla., and when we visit we have a wonderful time but we completely wear them out. They go from zero to 70 for an entire week, and they aren't used to that much chaos at one time for such a sustained period. So when a condo in their building came on the market, Hubs and I decided to buy it. The sale was finalized on Wednesday. Once we get this puppy furnished, we'll be able to visit without overwhelming my parents. It's a great solution for us and for them. This trip was a little schizophrenic - mornings at the beach swimming in the Gulf of Mexico, and then afternoons at Bed, Bath & Beyond, Lowe's and Target.
Hubs had to work but came down late Thursday, and I left the kids with my parents and met him at a resort in Naples. Friday morning, we picked up the kids and went to the coolest county park ever - the Sun N Fun Lagoon water park. It was totally awesome, they had something fun and exciting for each of our kids. We loved it.
NSV Alert: I had to walk all around the water park in nothing but my bathing suit. No wrap, no cover-up, nothing. Just me and a swimsuit. AND I DID IT. I wasn't 100 percent comfortable - those women have some killer bodies in Naples. But I didn't spent the entire time dying of mortification, either. I had fun. I went on the water slides and laughed with my boy on the lazy river when we got stuck under a "waterfall" and my straw hat got soaked. I had a good time.
Also, I wore a pair of khakis that I bought last spring. They worked then, but were on the tighter side. This year, they fit perfectly. I haven't lost much weight at all lately, so this was a really nice boost for me. Changes are happening, even if they're not evident on the scale.
I hope you're all well. I'm off to start catching up on everyone's blogs. Happy Easter!
Monday, April 11, 2011
Monday, Monday
Where did the week go? I don't know about you, but I did NOT spend my week at the gym. No, I spent my week doing regular everyday stuff and trying to keep a lid on the antibiotic-induced nausea. (Zantac was helpful with that.) I went to the gym one day and felt really weak, so much so that I left after 20 minutes and canceled my appointments for the rest of last week.
Today I went back and did a 30-minute light workout with my trainer. I feel lame and can't believe how much this single infection has knocked me down. But today is my last dose of Cipro and I know I'll be able to get back to where I was at the gym. But this experience has been eye-opening.
My weight is up a bit but I'm having a lovely tomato, mozzarella and basil salad for lunch so I think with increased veggies and staying strict on my protein/veggies/little to no carbs routine I'll be able to turn things around.
More importantly, my sweet sweet dad is having a health scare and I am completely freaked out about this. He's only 62. Please keep him in your thoughts and prayers. We love him so much and we want to keep him healthy.
Today I went back and did a 30-minute light workout with my trainer. I feel lame and can't believe how much this single infection has knocked me down. But today is my last dose of Cipro and I know I'll be able to get back to where I was at the gym. But this experience has been eye-opening.
My weight is up a bit but I'm having a lovely tomato, mozzarella and basil salad for lunch so I think with increased veggies and staying strict on my protein/veggies/little to no carbs routine I'll be able to turn things around.
More importantly, my sweet sweet dad is having a health scare and I am completely freaked out about this. He's only 62. Please keep him in your thoughts and prayers. We love him so much and we want to keep him healthy.
Monday, April 4, 2011
I'm a Hot Mess
I haven't been able to shake my infection, I'm achy and uncomfortable. My doctor hooked me up with some Cipro and my mother tells me that should knock me back to normal in the next day or two.
In the meantime, I've been eating everything in sight yesterday and today. I think it's partly emotional. I'm sick and a little overwhelmed with the usual household stuff, school stuff and the planning I need to do for summer. (Does anyone else feel like a freakin' cruise director when you're trying to get kids' activities and camps organized?) Also, Hubs is in the Middle East on business and I'm not thrilled about it.
But I'm asking myself: Why does a person eat when she's not hungry? Especially with the band, there's no excuse for that bullshit. It's taking away the whole benefit of having a band. Frustrating. It's a little tricky, because if I wait too long then I eat too fast and all hell breaks loose with my band. But I'm clearly eating when I'm not hungry, possibly out of habit or boredom or whatever.
You've all given me some good tips about shaking up my routines to get out of bad habits and create new ones, and I need to put those into practice. Like, now.
In the meantime, I've been eating everything in sight yesterday and today. I think it's partly emotional. I'm sick and a little overwhelmed with the usual household stuff, school stuff and the planning I need to do for summer. (Does anyone else feel like a freakin' cruise director when you're trying to get kids' activities and camps organized?) Also, Hubs is in the Middle East on business and I'm not thrilled about it.
But I'm asking myself: Why does a person eat when she's not hungry? Especially with the band, there's no excuse for that bullshit. It's taking away the whole benefit of having a band. Frustrating. It's a little tricky, because if I wait too long then I eat too fast and all hell breaks loose with my band. But I'm clearly eating when I'm not hungry, possibly out of habit or boredom or whatever.
You've all given me some good tips about shaking up my routines to get out of bad habits and create new ones, and I need to put those into practice. Like, now.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Guess What I Brought Home From Disney World?
One point eight pounds.
Not horrible, not great. I can deal with it.
Not horrible, not great. I can deal with it.
Monday, March 28, 2011
The Inconvenient Truth (About the Band)
The truth is: This band of mine can be damn inconvenient sometimes. Don't get me wrong, I love it and what it does for me, and I'm grateful to have it.
But my band really sent me off the rails this morning.
Over the weekend my band was inexplicably tight. It was a bummer, but it was not unmanageable. I didn't actually throw anything up, I just felt realllllly uncomfortable and slimed so I stopped trying to eat. But then my morning tea wouldn't go down smoothly and I got a little dehydrated because I was scared to have much of anything. Miraculously, last night things got a little better and I actually ate dinner.
And then this morning, for the first time in at least a decade, I woke up with a raging urinary-tract infection. I'm gonna go ahead and blame it on being dehydrated.
I have a 5.15 am pickup tomorrow for my kid's Disney trip. I went to a CVS MinuteClinic this morning, told them my tale of woe, peed into a cup and left with a large-ish bottle of liquid antibiotic. That may or may not cause diarrhea, but probably will clear up my UTI.
Then I went to my surgeon's office, where my doctor heroically ran to meet me after he left the OR. He very kindly withdrew a couple drops, taking me from 5.6 cc's to 5.45 cc's. He wanted to do a little more but I wanted just enough so I wouldn't get in trouble in humid Orlando. He was very nice and sympathetic.
I am slightly feverish and shivery and my kidneys are sore and it hurts to pee, but I'm hopeful that once I get the second dose of antibiotic in my system tonight things will turn around.
But my band really sent me off the rails this morning.
Over the weekend my band was inexplicably tight. It was a bummer, but it was not unmanageable. I didn't actually throw anything up, I just felt realllllly uncomfortable and slimed so I stopped trying to eat. But then my morning tea wouldn't go down smoothly and I got a little dehydrated because I was scared to have much of anything. Miraculously, last night things got a little better and I actually ate dinner.
And then this morning, for the first time in at least a decade, I woke up with a raging urinary-tract infection. I'm gonna go ahead and blame it on being dehydrated.
I have a 5.15 am pickup tomorrow for my kid's Disney trip. I went to a CVS MinuteClinic this morning, told them my tale of woe, peed into a cup and left with a large-ish bottle of liquid antibiotic. That may or may not cause diarrhea, but probably will clear up my UTI.
Then I went to my surgeon's office, where my doctor heroically ran to meet me after he left the OR. He very kindly withdrew a couple drops, taking me from 5.6 cc's to 5.45 cc's. He wanted to do a little more but I wanted just enough so I wouldn't get in trouble in humid Orlando. He was very nice and sympathetic.
I am slightly feverish and shivery and my kidneys are sore and it hurts to pee, but I'm hopeful that once I get the second dose of antibiotic in my system tonight things will turn around.
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